Milestones

For most, the turning of a new decade is a tough birthday- not for me. For some reason turning 25 was hard for me even though I was the most physically fit, emotionally happy, and the best person I could be at that age. Turning 30 was a piece of cake because I was young for that decade. 25 was hard because I was nearing the end of my twentieth decade so turning 35 was hard this past week- I am now on the older side of 30's.

35 is a lot different for me than 25 as I'm sure it is for most people. I am now proof how much life can change in 10 years. At 25 I was extremely physically fit and I had plenty of material possesions. At 35 I am pre-approved for getting state disability and have had to cut back on material possesions because I can barely keep up with the medical bills for my condition. Wow- I've turned 35 and disabled in the same year- it's a lot to take in.

It seems so silly to have made plans in the past. Life changes so quickly, sometimes so drastically, and people keep making plans for next week, next year, and of course the 5 year plan that I just want to laugh at.

Michael J. Fox was diagnosed several years ago with Parkinson's Disease. Obviously this was life altering for him, but he has learned some valuable lessons and some I would like to quote: "I am careful not to confuse excellence with perfection. Excellence I can reach for, perfection is God's business". Wow, I have been such a perfectionist all my life and now facing a disease where there is no explanation/cause for, it makes me wonder if I did some unnecessary stressing. "My happiness grows in direct proportion to my acceptance and in inverse proportion to my expectations." Some days I take pills and they help and other days they don't, but I just push through. I can't do a lot about the pill's effectiveness that day, and I will be in pain- that's everyday, but I won't stop my life or wear a frown all day.